We are under a “Mermaid moon” today.
That means the moon looks like The Mermaid’s season of Autumn Equinox; half light-half dark, with waning light.
The Mermaid archetype kindles our wisdom of independence and integration.
She’s also the non-conformist, and we call her “the divine weirdo”.
So, The Mermaid and Tantrika archetypes team up to offer us an interesting lens today.
During these last weeks of Tantrika season, after many days spent “wanting” it’s time to want weird.
First of all, speaking of glossaries, I’m using the term weird “in a good way”.
By weird I mean unique, untampered-with, and unconventional; a feral innocence defined by unbound courage to be and belong to yourself no matter what anyone else thinks.
So, what does that self want?
Have you ever desired on her behalf?
“Wanting weird” can be a little confusing.
You’re not out to win an award for wanting the weirdest thing ever.
Nor are you trying to be the only one desiring it.
Like, if you want a wedding on the moon, ok, rock on. But wanting weird is not about shock value.
Rather, what do you want that you haven’t been told to want?
What do you want that isn’t commonly modeled?
Perhaps this could be classified under wildest dreams, things that are so “out there” you’re not considering them.
But you should.
Because these wild desires are there for a reason.
They’re aligning you.
Wanting weird is either gonna keep you steady on your path or offer a much-needed course correction.
To identify your weird desires, let’s play pretend.
Write out a “wanted ad” for a job, house, or relationship.
Don’t hold back, write out all the “weird” things that would be a dream come true.
Here’s an example:
For sale, a house on the northside of a mountain in a thicket of rhododendron teeming with bears, bobcats, and foxes. The house is heated only by a woodstove. It’s small, and a third of it is a studio for blending oils and holding small classes. The driveway is passable only with 4WD, and there’s no cell reception.
I’ve just described Darkwood, which is my idea of heaven.
But you might’ve just read that and thought wtf, who would want that?
Me. I want that. It’s unconventional, and it completely supports who I am.
Now you try.
Either describe some weird thing you’ve already got, like I did.
Or, describe something that’s still a desire.
Both things will reveal the weird you want.
I mean, I’m pretty sure that Liz Gilbert’s plan for writing Eat, Pray, Love was weird.
Imagine her telling her publisher ok, so I’m gonna travel to a bunch of places to eat, meditate, and visit a fortune teller I like and then write a book about what happens, and just call it something like “eat, pray, love”. When can I get my advance?
That. Is. Weird.
But.
She was brave enough to want it.
(Even braver to pitch it).
She trusted what she wanted even though it was unconventional and not modeled, aka weird.
I think we all know how her weird desire turned out.
So, what’s the weird you want?
Like Eat, Pray, Love, it could change not only your life, but ripple out and inspire others.
Under this Mermaid moon, may your bravery for wanting weird surpass your reluctance.
love and a pack of weirdos,
xo
kv
